My master just got back after being in Hawai’i for three weeks, and he’s not the same as when he left. I’m not sure exactly what’s up, but I’ll do my doggone best to explain.
Fair warning: This may be a long blog entry, but it’s an important one, and I haven’t blogged in a long time, so… “Double Jeopardy! We’re fine.”
Now, I know I’m coming from a dog’s point-of-view when I say this, but I think it’s true: My master’s always been a different sort (“touched” I think they call it?), and so it shouldn’t come as a surprise to anyone, especially me, that he hasn’t uttered a word since he returned.
This post is about 1,000 words long, and “a picture is worth a thousand words,” so I thought I’d intersperse a bunch of his vacation pics throughout this entry to break up the rather lengthy explanation that he told me was okay to share with you. So, if you get bored, just scroll through the pics, okay?
Thank dogness us canines pick up sign language quickly! I asked him what the deal was with his not-speaking, and he said that he came to awareness about half-way into his trip that the best thing for him to do for the time being was to stop speaking and be quiet. He’s been to Hawai’i before, so I asked him what was so different this time!
“You could go to the moon and back and I’d still be telling the story,” he signed. I put my paw up by my head to show him I understood, and, after he reminded me that there’s nothing wrong with his ears, he smiled and continued…
He describes himself as at the intersection of where mind, body, and spirit meet. He claims that being silent is helping him be more peaceful cognitively, physically, and spiritually. Now, I don’t suggest any of my readers try this at home, as it’s a proven fact that my master has a mind like no-one else’s.
It honestly didn’t come as a surprise to me that my master would stop speaking. That’s because he has always had a lot of differences (some apparent, some not) when it comes to processing information and using language in the first place.
Most of his unique characteristics stem from something he rarely mentions—his high functioning autism (HFA), or, as some humans call it, “Asperger’s Syndrome.” Oddly enough, this is the topic he started with before he told me about Hawai’i.
My master reminded me that he once told me, “If you’ve met one person with Asperger’s, Ada, then you’ve met one person with Asperger’s.” I’ve noticed since then that this is a frequently used idiom when talking about HFA. The use of all data streams associated with human communication is distinctly different for those humans who have HFA.
Humans with HFA seem to miss cues that neurotypical minds do not, and they pick up on patterns that other humans might never imagine. In short, they process sensory input differently, they seem to miss the visual cues that others pick up on in normal conversation, and they have trouble matching faces with emotions (sometimes, more trouble than others… see this link for more info about that and other HFA characteristics).
Some people with Asperger’s have impeccable speech, and some of them rarely utter a word. While some of their interests vary over time, they nearly always have a “special interest” that they don’t (can’t?) let go of… that is, until they let go of it. (If a television reference is useful here, then you can think about either “Gary” from Alphas or “Sheldon” from The Big Bang Theory.)
So, that was the first part—he reminded me what I already know about Asperger’s and how language-driven and pattern-oriented it is. What he didn’t bother reminding me of were the difficult times that he’s been through as a result of knowing how differently he structures his own language, specifically his own speech… but he did tell me that his awareness peaked over the winter break in Hawai’i—and in a positive way.
He told me that while he was in Hawai’i, he gradually became aware of how language and how speech are used in relationship to power, and it struck him that his autism means that he is also different in this regard.
(Considering the fact that his dissertation focuses on the intersection of literacy and power, I’m not surprised he was thinking about this.)
He mentioned that it became crystal clear to him, in an overwhelming way, that language is the very medium of power—and that power itself moves between humans as a result of their communication.
Similarly, this is how power moves between the physical world and the spiritual world, and communication is also the chief variable in humans’ social, emotional, and cognitive paradigms.
There are natural laws governing power, which is a force not a substance, and they are based in the processes and mechanisms of language.
Then he got academic on me and asked me to consider the generative force traditionally given in many religions to the word “Word”—Logos, in Greek—and he gave me an example from Wikipedia of how John claims Jesus Christ as the Logos, through which and by which all things are made. Of course, there are multiple connections to other religions as well, he added.
It was a spiritual and humbling experience for my master—that I can tell—and even though he doesn’t have a rationale for exactly why, my master said that the quieter he became, the more at peace and natural he felt in regards to his Asperger’s characteristics… almost like he had been using too many words before, which oddly enough is a trait of those with HFA (along with echolalia, a unique prosody, and being pedantic).
“Ada,” he signed to me, “I think maybe the ‘why’ isn’t as important as the ‘how’ in this case. I can’t explain why my autistic mind became more at peace, but I know how—by being quiet. I feel at peace with how my mind was created to be. It’s like hitting a reset button.”
“It’s hard enough to deal with stimuli when you have HFA,” he continued, “let alone be able to hear what the universe is saying—especially when I’m busy talking. I am beginning to understand something new, and I have less fear and anxiety about my own communication. The bottom line is that I’m handling sensory input a lot more clearly now, and I figure I’ll know when it’s time to start speaking again.”
The funny part about this is that I have been telling my master ever since he adopted me to stop asking the question ‘Why?’ and start asking ‘How?’ So, maybe he finally feels convicted to listen to his dog. No worries—whatever works, works.
The last thing my master told me was that to force him to speak would no doubt be problematic in many regards. He said that he is asking for me to accommodate him by not requiring him to speak. Read: I’m supposed to be mindful of instructions with just hand signals, notes, and whistles now… oh, and that annoying beep from my collar.
There’s obviously a lot longer of a story here, but I suppose all any human really needs to know is that master is not speaking because it helps with the issues stemming from his HFA, and it helps him on other levels, too. I asked when he will start again, but all he told me was, “Whenever it feels like the right thing to do… but right now, something different is going on.”
No bother, in the meanwhile he and I will sign and leave each other notes. I might even get to fill my blog-a-month New Year’s resolution now that there’s some peace and quiet…
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If you want to see how happy I was to see him after 3 weeks away, then check it out:
…and here’s a playlist where you can check out my videos on youtube.
All photos (c) Ada Mae Compton, 2013. Give credit where credit is due if you lift these pics or my master’s ink design. Oh, and you can click on any pic to enlarge it. I always try to upload high resolution pics, so it might take a minute for them to load.